The thing about love is, you
never ask for it...
It comes when it pleases and
goes when it wishes. It respects nothing and no one. It stays even when you don't want it to. It goes even if you try hard to make it stay. You don't
control it but it controls you. Your thoughts, actions, plans, goals, desires,
time, sleep and your health.
One wonders why such an
emotion that is neither created nor destroyed can be so overwhelming. Can you
be held responsible for how and who you fall in love with? Fall. The very word connotes accident. An unintentional happening. Totally out of your control.
And when you love someone,
any one, its a beautiful feeling...that hurts.
The craving, longing, desire
for the time, attention, care, smile, words and approval of the loved one that
only seems to be sated when the loved one is present. Only for it to start
over again. Worse than before.
The heart aches for the loved
one. An ache that only they can soothe. But the soothing only increases the ache. You wish you don't feel that way and pray the feeling never goes away in
the same breath. You wish it doesn't control you life so much but can not
imagine life without it.
When you are in love with
someone, you give them an advantage over others...to hurt you more. The things
they did that never mattered or hurt you before, now do. You give them the
greater opportunity to break your heart. You plan your life around them. Build
for them an image of perfection. You see little or no flaws. The ones you see
are easily overlooked. After all, what's a little flaw compared to them being
with you? You desire them. Seek their all time attention. Their approval.
Comments. Smile.
You put them under pressure
to measure up.
You set them up to
disappoint you.
The greatest battle anyone
will ever fight is with the heart. With that pulling of the heart. That insatiable
ache. And if you win, you lose.
.....(To be continued)
