Dis GAI sef!

The thing about love is, you never ask for it...

It comes when it pleases and goes when it wishes. It respects nothing and no one. It stays even when you don't want it to. It goes even if you try hard to make it stay. You don't control it but it controls you. Your thoughts, actions, plans, goals, desires, time, sleep and your health.

One wonders why such an emotion that is neither created nor destroyed can be so overwhelming. Can you be held responsible for how and who you fall in love with? Fall. The very word connotes accident. An unintentional happening. Totally out of your control.

And when you love someone, any one, its a beautiful feeling...that hurts.

The craving, longing, desire for the time, attention, care, smile, words and approval of the loved one that only seems to be sated when the loved one is present. Only for it to start over again. Worse than before.

The heart aches for the loved one. An ache that only they can soothe. But the soothing only increases the ache. You wish you don't feel that way and pray the feeling never goes away in the same breath. You wish it doesn't control you life so much but can not imagine life without it.

When you are in love with someone, you give them an advantage over others...to hurt you more. The things they did that never mattered or hurt you before, now do. You give them the greater opportunity to break your heart. You plan your life around them. Build for them an image of perfection. You see little or no flaws. The ones you see are easily overlooked. After all, what's a little flaw compared to them being with you? You desire them. Seek their all time attention. Their approval. Comments. Smile.

You put them under pressure to measure up.

You set them up to disappoint you.

The greatest battle anyone will ever fight is with the heart. With that pulling of the heart. That insatiable ache. And if you win, you lose.

.....(To be continued)